Miss Hanna Beth

another night out. saturday night with ali and puppy. the night started at a going away party in silverlake for this boy named jordan, who i didnt know until last night. when we walked in we were given name tags and offered red velvet cake. as we were getting our tags 3 girls walked by and the last one was shooting dirty looks our way..

we ended up in the kicthen, talking with our friend lisa. the 3 girls were across the room, and the one in a stupid white dress kept yelling shit like "some fucking bitch in here better stop talking shit"... i had said nothing, nor had my friends.. just some dumb drunk girl trying to start drama.. we then went outside where ali got her hair pulled and two boys asked if we liked their belt buckles.. which were their balls.. really mature.. one of the girls from the kitchen came up to me actting all sarcastic, and apologizing for getting off on the wrong foot.. shes a liar.. i hate fake people who consume their lives with drama.. grow up.

skelanimals shoot monday and shooting. its their new ad campaign.. so should be in a lot of magazines. ive been talking a lot with the owner of the clothing company 6 barrel hooligun.. and were working out warped tour dates.. so expect me on atleast 2 weeks of warped tour.. maybe more?

ali and i are going to start working on a accessories line..
should be really cute!

today has been great. ali and i went to real food daily and got a great vegan brunch..

followed by manicures and pedicures.. got all black on the toes and black and pink on my hands.. tonight were going to the coachella after party at vine bar, tomorrow zach gets to town for one night, its been forever. i want more tattoo's, sushi from koi, to paint my bathroom a peach color with bubbles spray painted on and to watch the movie dream a little dream.

wednesday i leave to philly.
photoshoots galore, bamboozle.

last night was the final night i got to spend with my boys from shadows fall. i'm going to miss them all. last nights show was at the wiltern. ali and i went for about 30 minutes, then went to california roll for some sushi.. the anaheim show, which was on tuesday was a complete disaster. the tour manager of stone sour was a complete ass hole to me. i was walking around the back and i was going to come in to watch the bands play and when i opened the door he grabbed my arm extremly hard, and asked where i was going. i showed him my passes and told him i was with shadows fall and i had been on the tour for over a week now.. he kept freaking out and when i told him to let go of my arm he replied with "i dont give a fuck if im hurting you".. yelled in my face some more.. then finally let go.. i rushed to the nearest security guard.. and told them what had happend.. at first i thought it was a staff member of the house of blues, but later i found out it was stone sours tour manager.. he got in a lot of trouble.. and wasnt aloud near me for the rest of the show..

honestly.. no one should act that way to anyone.. he was a grown man.. what an asshole!! haha.

anyways.. last night...

after ali and i finished our rolls and green tea we headed to Youth Group which is DJ Skeet Skeet's new club. he does it every wednesday night. i had a good time. it wasnt too crowded and i got to see a lot of friends i hadnt seen for awhile.

a bunch of new photos posted from my photoshoot with shutterclick photography. photoshoot for franny's summer line happening this weekend. did a feature for Nylon Magazine.. its all about LA fashion.. should be pretty funny.. it was have a photo of me and a short interview i did.. interviews with the stars of the show heroes should be out monday!

until next time..

enjoy life.
don't take everything too seriously.
its ok to let ok sometimes and have some fun.

finally home. tour was great, but it ate me alive. 3 hours of sleep and a margarita is not the best combination. vegas was a riot. new york new york rollercoaster, shark attacks, some of the unexpected, and finally falling asleep around 4a.m but being woke up by a drunken paul.. no fun.. the drives were a mess, but i made it through.. stone sour, lacuna coil, shadows fall... everyone was great. cake batter ice cream at the mall followed by blades of glory and a midnight shot.

shot for franny's winter catalog and later this week i will shoot the summer wear. tonight im going to the shadows fall show in anaheim, followed by teddies. last night i interviewed all the stars of the show heroes at their hollywood premier.

did you ever notice how much impact one person could have on your life? they could make you, they could brake you. that one person could make you feel like you were on top of the world, and in a moment of seconds make you feel like you were getting your heart ripped out of your chest. they could make you feel so uncomfortable in your own skin, that you wont know what to do with yourself. they could drive you to insanity. all in a mater of weeks, days, hours, minutes..

she has forgotten how to love.
been so dissapointment so many times.
everything just skips a beat.

i am content with life.
working nonstop till the bitter end.
i want to start writing more,
i want to travel more,
i want to experience life to its fullest.

may 11th the wisdom teeth come out.

get to see audrey in a week. tons of photoshoots, margaritas, and bamboozle.

this is my life.
if you cant except me for who i am,
then you shouldnt be reading my journals,
and looking at my photos.
im not going to change.

thank you.

last night was a long drive to the beach in lovely los angeles traffic, followed by a jacuzzi. tonight Skyler and I are going to a T-Mobile party. i've known Skyler since kindergarden, shes the only person ive kept in contact with that long. wednesday night trevor and i went to the academy of television in north hollywood to interview the guys from the HBO show Entourage. a video of the interviews should be posted soon. i'm sick. i have a cold and it wont go away. club hopping with kate. from le deux to moscow to teddys.. only staying for 30 minutes at each. you want to leave when you're having fun still, not when you get bored. vitamin c and green tea is my fix. spicy tuna is all i ever want to eat.

yesterday there were 4 fires in los angeles. the winds were so strong, it felt like a tornado. power went out in a bunch of homes, including my moms. just another day.. marlon is excited about his new school. he already has some friends there, so im sure he'll have no problem fitting in.

why is it whenever i go out i always have to run into someone i know. it could be the grocery store or nail salon.. ill always see someone i know.. its the worst.. in los angeles.. everyone knows everyone.. i'm working on new designs for my clothing line. everything should be done by summer.

xxoo

HannaBeth

so, ive been getting so many questions about my appearance on parental control, so i thought i would dedicate this blog to answering them. basically i went into mtv for an audition for the show because i thought it would be pretty hilarious if i was actually on it.. a few weeks after my audition mtv had called me and told me to come in for the interview with the parents and that i was probably going to get picked to go on the date. on the day of the interviews the parents were sick, so two men who worked for mtv were actually asking the questions.. 2 days later was my dad with anthony which consisted of me being a tour guide of LA, playing in a fountain and having a picnic. at times during filming they would tell me certain things to say like the skinny dipping comment or how whoever got the most coins would get a kiss. mable wasnt even anthonys girlfriend. she was some girl who worked with him at abercrombie.. ahahha. after i got picked and won, that was it. i never saw anthony again.. he did find my myspace though and ask if i wanted to go to sushi.. haha. so yes, the show is pretty staged, sometimes the couples arent even dating.. and the house we were in wasnt even his house..

other news..

i finally got a new laptop, so i will be updating a lot more now. new videos on the way. one includs a kareoke party at an asians house who was wearing gold hot shorts! so be prepared. 10 more days till i leave for shadows fall tour. if im going to be in your town, make sure to come out to a show! ill also be at bamboozle with audrey. new tattoo on my foot, it says fate. im thinking im getting a new one on my ribs of a lock and a skeleton key.

last words..

so this is how it is.
take whats in front of you,
and turn it into something positive.
when there is no one to talk to,
write. start writing  down everything.
not everyone can express how they feel to one another.
so instead of keeping all your emotions building up inside,
write them on a piece of paper.
then later in life you can look back to it,
and remember exactly how you were feeling at that very moment.

this is reality.
no need to try and disguise.
wearing a mask, covering your true identity.
be who you are.
no one has the right to judge you.
don't use people to gain something worthless.
learn the meaning of a true friendship.

Life has been good lately. Everything is starting to fall back into place. I leave for the Shadows Fall tour in two weeks. Apparently, the bus I am staying on has leopard interior, fog machines, a disco ball and a sign the lights up which says "Live Nude". Should be an interesting time.. haha. Yesterday I went to Virgin and bought the new Modest Mouse CD, Pretty Persuation, Rules of Attraction, Camille Rose Garcia's art book, and a book teaching you how to make this weird critters. Right now I am eatting a bowl of captain crunch, while trying to wake up and start my day. Chicken won't stop calling, and texting, and messaging.. and even if I tell him a thousand times to leave me alone, he still doesnt get it.. its the mind of a drug adict. they are all liars, and can't understand when you tell them to leave you alone. Last night Ryan came over and his friend spray painted a giant picture of a gloomy bear fight this rabbit above my bed, it turned out really well, and I should have photos soon. I'm at my moms house right now, its weird being in my old room. It's so different than how it was before, the feeling has changed. I love my new dog Mya. She is a German Shepard. I also have 3 smaller dogs, Marilyn, Ratu and Little Kim. Yes, Little Kim was named after the rapper, I named her in 5th grade.. haha.. and Marilyn is named of Marilyn Monroe.. and Ratu.. his full name is Un-Ratu.. not sure what that means.. my brother Marlon named him.

Until next time..

Don't take anything in life to seriously.
Always know there is always tomorrow.
If people have something mean to say about you, it just means they're insecure.