Hannabeth's Journals

"too weird to live, too rare to die"

lately i have been getting a lot of messages regarding the corsets ivey & i wore for halloween. since people seem interested we decided to custom make some to sell. the price will range from 200$ to 400$ depending on how detailed you want it.. studs, rhinestones, bows.. you name it.. we are down to do it all! if you're interested in purchasing one email us at hannabethvintage@yahoo.com we are also working on custom hair accessories & raccoon tails.

yesterday ivey & i spent the day shopping for some fall fashion.. long sleeve crop tops, tattered jeans, motor cycle leopard jackets.. a trashey chic look.. it all seems to come together.. our new obsession at the moment is the new alexander wang boots he just put out.. they are amazing.. he is such a great designer.. one of my favorites at the moment.. tomorrow i am shooting with sophia alvarado. we are going for a late seventies look. once i am done shooting i am going to cirque du soleil in santa monica. every show they put on is usually fantastic.. have you ever been? this weekend is going to be full of working on music, winter fashion products & chaos. if there wasn't a little chaos in life, life would be so dull.. excitement & action is what keeps us going.. keeps us alive..

today is quiet.. today is peaceful...

thanks giving is only weeks away.. are you traveling or staying in town?

spending it with family, close friends.. loved ones?

i'm going to be at my dads house with my whole family & close friends.. i can't wait.

xxoo

reality leaves a lot to the imagination.

"we were all feeling a bit shagged and fagged and fashed, it being a night of no small expenditure"

how is it already november? the pumpkins have been carved & the christmas decor is already starting to go up. i feel like it was yesterday i was doing the countdown into 2009.. where did this year go? time really does fly by.. you really have to enjoy every minute of it. friday night.. was when the chaos began. tons of holiday parties & halloween fun. ivey & i dressed up as droogs from clockwork orange, one of my favorite films. the night started with pre drinks in the hills. photo booth under the stars, tons of yummy finger foods, test tube shots and dancing. from there we made our way to wilshire for another halloween party, only this time it was in an office type building & you could hardly move. the music was loud and everyone was dressed to impress. the night went on.. and on.. one party to the next.. making our way around the dull lit town.. ending up on a bean bag chair at 3a.m. watching the riot at the front gate while eating an omelet from the omelet bar justin had set up for the evening. chaos at its finest. on saturday.. the actual halloween day, i started my night by helping my mom with the trick treat kids in brentwood. ended up at a party off lauren with too much black light. left around one to support my roomie allie at the key club. the night was young, but friday took a lot out of me. sunday was recovery at its finest. malibu brunch on the beach.. bloody marys.. you get the idea..

not having a car in la la land is the worst. my car is in the shop and i feel so useless without it. this week i have a few shoots lined up, one is with the lovely sophia & another with my friend will. we are going for a ruff late seventies look. i've started working on designs for my winter line, hopefully i will be able to get everything together in time for christmas. in a few weeks i get to film my next part of the dobly promotion i am doing.. instead of filming at a hotel we are going to be at the black crows concert! should be a fun night. right now ivey is wrapped up like a burrito on my pull out mattress from urban. i am snuggled up on my chair with cinderella by my feet. my apartment smells like burned jiffy pop & it wont go away.. i shouldn't be allowed to have a stove.. i always do something wrong.. even if its something so simple..

what is one of your biggest fears in life & what steps, if any, have you taken to overcome it?

xxoo

baby, did you forget to take your meds?

halloween is here. 2 more days till the chaos begins.. well.. actually.. not really.. haha! tomorrow ivey & i already have 3 costume parties to attend to. we made our outfits, & i must say i am pretty happy with the outcome. we have a few finishing touches to do, but overall it's basically done. yesterday we decided to get in the holiday spirit by watching scary movies all day & then driving down to the haunted hay ride in calabasas at night. i usually dont get scared, but this ride was pretty freaky! people popping out left and right.. banging on the sides of the cart.. clown raves.. getting right up in your face.. pretty dramatic.. one guy dressed as hannibal asked if i was single & for my number.. umm.. im guessing thats not part of the ride? haha!

sorry i haven't been updating as much as i usually do. work has been in full gear for the past few weeks. if i'm not writing in the studio, i am working on my clothing line or shooting. i am working on some new designs and accessories for winter.. hopefully i will be able to get it out before christmas time. i have a few clothing brand shoots coming up in the next few weeks, one of the brands is this awesome one from canada that makes all one of a kind leather jackets, corsets, pants, etc. etc. it's so much more fun working for a company when you actually like the product.. i am over advertising for things i don't like.. whats the point? im not going to say i love the line when i dont. i have to be real. in the end it might not be the best decision, but at least i know im being true to myself. no more bullshit. ive grown up & i dont have time for it. companies love to take advantage, especially when you're young. you have to be careful. my new roommate allie moves in today! i can't wait. angelica still lives in the building, but she got a 2 bedroom with her twin sister, so we still get to hang out. i love living in a building with tons of cool people. everyone is nice here, its perfect. last thursday was the hello kitty 35th anniversary event. the overall event was fantastic! royal t did an amazing job turning their space into a hello kitty wonderland.. ivey & i only stayed for about 20 minutes.. i dont do too well in crowds.. i ended up going back a few days later so i could really check out the exhibit. so many good art pieces, i really want to get a painting for my apartment. in a few weeks they are doing a fashion show with tons of designs inspired by hello kitty.. definitely wont be missing that!!

i am almost sold out of everything from the last journal.. i do have a few pieces left though.. i am trying to clear it all, so i am taking offers.. even if its 10$, i just need the space!!! haha!! lately, i have been on a music documentary kick. been watching movies about the stones, dylan, joy division.. etc etc.. i find them so interesting.. just makes me want to live in that era more & more.. music just isn't good anymore.. it will never be how it was back then.. back then music had life.. had meaning.. now? it's all garbage in my opinion.

do you like documentaries? what is your favorite one?

xxoo

last few dresses on sale & vintage hats!

here are a few more pieces from my pop up store.

i ship world wide. payments through paypal only.

if you're interested in purchasing anything email me at hannabethvintage@yahoo.com

vintage leopard pill box hat from the sixties: 30$

vintage white sailor type hat with net & bow: 30$

vintage yellow hat with flowers & net: 30$

vintage high waisted silk shorts: 30$

plaid baby doll dress: 20$

vintage white slip with peacocks: 15$

purple pin stripe dress: 20$

green ruffle dress from the fifties: 25$

vintage red & white striped dress: 20$

white floral baby doll dress: 25$

vintage floral fan dress: 25$

xxoo

so come baby, let's go, don't you hear the rock n' roll.

fall has begun. it's time to put away your bikini & trade it out for your winter coat. fall/winter fashion is my favorite, i love the look of layers. at the moment i am watching bewitched, drinking some hot peppermint tea, and going over all my orders. tonight i am meeting with my dad at dantanas for our father daughter dinner. it's been awhile since we have done one, so it will be nice to catch up. after dinner i am going to support my friend at the key club. he is performing with his band "petty cash". they do all tom petty cover songs, what is better than that? haha. tom petty has always been one of my favorite musicians. every album he ever put out was truly genius. tomorrow i am back to the studio.. i can't wait to get some tracks finished.. its a lot of work, but i am always up for a new challenge. wednesday i am going to support my friends in three 6 mafia. i haven't seen them live yet, but im sure it will be killer!! thursday royal t is doing the 35th hello kitty anniversary opening. they are going to have a hello kitty pop up store open for about 3 months. at the opening they will have hello kitty bento boxes, themed drinks, art work etc. etc. i can't wait to go! it's going to be so cool to see how it all turns out.

there is something about old t.v. shows that i prefer so much more over new ones.. you can't beat the classics.. bewitched, i dream of jeannie, the munsters, i love lucy.. it's all so good!!! i need to get all the box sets.. i think a visit to amazon.com might be in my future! ha ha! saturday night diana and i went to a masquerade theme ball at my friend paris' house. the party was a surprise party for her boy doug. everything about the party was great!! the food, music, drinks.. it all came together perfectly. everyone being in masks made me feel like i was in the movie eyes wide shut.. sometimes change of location can be inspiring.. once my new roomie, rich royal, moves in we are going to redecorate the apartment & make it feel more like home. my bedroom is where i want it to be, but the living room & kitchen needs some work.

what is your favorite season for fashion?

what are you going to be/do for halloween?

i still don't know what to be!!!! ahhhh!!!!

xxoo

so i wake in the morning, & i step outside, & i take a deep breathe & i get real high.

"and so i cry sometimes, when im lying in bed, just to get it all out, what's in my head."

this is an old article from a japanese magazine.. it covered coachella 2009.. there is a photo of aoki & i on the left side.. such a fun time.. i can't wait to go again next year.. waking up to open doors, fresh air & cold rain is so peaceful for some reason. to me, it's content. i love the rain & when it's gloomy.. it puts me in a good mood.. there is endless possibilities.. it will probably only last a few days, but i'm going to take it for all its worth. some things never change.. as much as you want to think they will, sometimes they dont. everyone in the world has a plan, a certain path to live our life by. if everything is happening for a reason, do we have any self control? do we control our fate or is it already planned out for us? are people ever truly content or do they just lie to themselves to make everything seem alright. is everything alright? is this the reality i truly want for myself? it's a lot to think about. you have to live life in the moment.. one day at a time.. focus on the now rather than tomorrow..

this week i have mostly been focusing on getting healthy again & finishing all the errands i had been putting off. i seem to keep running myself down, i need to take better care of myself.. i am starting to feel better.. i just have a cough now that doesn't seem to want to go away.. i finally saw inglorious bastards!! such a good film!! i would see it again.. it's one of the best movies i have seen in the theaters in a long time. tomorrow & friday i will be in the studio writing. can't wait for it all to be done. i have a few more pieces from my pop up store to sell & then i will be done. saturday i am going to a masquerade party.. i have always wanted to go to one.. i need to find the perfect mask! haha. it's so weird to see my brothers growing up.. they are growing up so fast.. marlon is already taller than me.. i remember when he was just a little boy.. running around & playing legos.. its crazy how fast life goes by.. thats why you need to take it for all its worth.. really do things you love and that make you smile.. there is no time to waste..

what is your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?

do you know any secret tricks to get rid of a cough? i need help!!! haha

xxoo

tainted youth. show your true colors.

it's crazy how in less than 24 hours something can change to the complete opposite. weather its a story you heard, a relationship with a friend or crush, a feeling, an emotion.. anything.. life is really unpredictable.. you never know whats going to happen.. emotions always change. just because you feel one way today doesn't mean it will be that way tomorrow. its tuff but thats life. struggles & pain is what make you alive.. those hard emotions we all go through is that makes us strong.. makes us who we are.. makes as able to take on anything.. if life was always easy, you would be bored. you need the ups and downs.. as unglamorous as that sounds.. people medicate to be numb to feelings & to their surrounding.. if you keep hiding how you feel it will all just build up & you will crash.. you need to expresses whats on your mind.. if you're feeling down, dont hide it with pills & booze.. express yourself.. life is too short to be a train wreck.. you have too much to conquer.

my mom & i on the cover of "our family" magazine. early nineties. haha. last night was wild. from photo booths to waking up in bath tubs.. the night didnt let me down.. started at the opening of voyeur.. such a chic new place.. very dark & sexy.. girls dancing in lingerie.. it reminded me of the club chuck has in gossip girl.. only more wild.. haha! after voyeur i finished the night with drinks at chateau & late night food at the london. the view on the roof of the london is so amazing.. i wish i had a view like that from my bedroom.. i love to watch the world go by.. i'm almost done selling the left overs from the pop up store.. i have a few more dresses to post.. this week i'm going to be in the studio .. i hope i feel better.. after last nights shenanigans i have a bit of a cold.. and my right knee is purple.. i need to not be so clumsy.. heels are never a good idea for me.. but i do love them.. i cant believe halloween is only a few weeks away.. i still have no idea what to be.. i want it to be original.. i might make my costume..

my little princess.

do you prefer showers or baths? i'm a big bath person. find it so relaxing.

what are you going to be for halloween? do you have any ideas for me?

xxoo

you know that i could use somebody, someone like you.

ever since i was young i have been a sensitive girl. i let things get to me, which in reality, mean NOTHING. what you have to teach yourself is that when people are talking about you, it's because they aren't satisfied with their own life.. if they were happy, then why would they take time to trash you? why would they need to put you down? it's sad that people feel the need to be negative and lie just for their own satisfaction.. apparently i was raised differently.. i have never been one to trash someone.. if i have a problem with you i will tell you.. but at the end of the day its your life & your choice on how to live it.. so why should i comment on it? the way i live my life, what i do for fun, for work, it's all personal.. its my choice & i dont see the need to bash on it. if you have a problem with who i am then why keep looking? sometimes when i hear negative things my first instinct is to lash back.. but in the end.. that gets you no where.. you need to be the stronger person and move forward.. its just people trying to hold you back.. jealousy.. you find a lot of that in this town.. as long as you have strong people around you who believe in you & who you are nothing else matters.. trust me.. i've been through tons of shit and i know first hand the negativity will never get you anywhere.. no one wants to throw you a pity party.. it's boring.. next..

today i did the test shoot for dolby at the roosevelt hotel. we are shooting at the penthouse suite, it is so beautiful, i want to stay there! haha. when you stand on the roof you can see all of los angeles. tomorrow we start filming at 11a.m. makeup at 10. all the products are really cool they are putting out.. i have never been that into electronics but i do find it interesting.. tonight i am having a girls night with molly & jenna.. gonna watch some gossip girl and make stop by for a drink at teddys. back in the studio tomorrow night at 830.. cant wait to get everything done.. make my words come alive.. i want to inspire.. i want to help.. i want people to relate..

are you big on electronics or do you prefer it old school?

xxoo

what happens in vegas, stays in vegas.

home sweet home from the wonderful town of sin. on friday a few friends & i decided to take a last minute trip to las vegas for the weekend. we got to fly up in this amazing jet with giant playing cards painted on the side. once we were all checked in we all had a yummy dinner at stacks.. i stayed at the mirage hotel where they were having their 20th anniversary. to celebrate the through a huge concert.. slash performed as well as courtney love & nicole from the pussy cat dolls. seeing slash live was definitely a dream come true.. he is known for being one of the best rock n roll guitarists of our time.. after the show i finished the night by partying it up at club jet. clubs in vegas are so different than ones in los angeles.. a lot more outrageous.. saturday i spent the day lounging in the sun at the bare pool at mirage. bare is the adult topless pool at mirage.. i didn't go topless, but it was still fun.. tons of great music.. i felt like i was at a party rather than lounging by the pool.. i got the gamble for my first time as well!!! i played black jack.. won about 60$.. haha! i can see how games like that can be addicting.. arrived back to reality this afternoon.. landed around 4.. since then i've been lounging around.. catching up on some errands..

this week is going to be busy. tomorrow i am meeting with my trainer & then rehearsing this video i am doing at roosevelt for dolby sound. tuesday i am in the studio & filming the dolby sound production video at roosevelt. i'm not sure what to expect, but it's going to be an interesting experience. thursday i am doing a fashion shoot & starting to plan los angeles fashion week.. besides walking in a few of the shows i might be doing a pop up store similar to the one i just did at royal t. i love getting to share my fashion & vintage finds with everyone.. it's fun for me..

what is your favorite part of halloween? the candy, the pumpkin carving, dressing up?

xxoo

i'd stop the world & melt with you.

daydreaming, love bites & endless hours.

she's lost control again.

does true love exist anymore? love seems so plastic in this sleepless town.. my mind has been wondering. sleepless nights are becoming an everyday routine. i have become the definition of a night owl. i prefer night time.. the moon is out.. i am not being blinded by the sun.. i am thinking about a million things.. it is even hard to just focus right now and type.. i constantly want to be working, creating.. i cant be satisfied just sitting here with the television on. i need to be inspired. i need to meet people who inspire me & who strive for similar things in life. i need people with edge, risk.. people who know how to live.. how to love.. a true friend. a true love. why is that so rare? when you find it, you hold on tight. things slip away so easily.. the nights are anxious, especially at the late hours. i tried to fall asleep around midnight.. but my mind got to thinking.. it took over and now her i am. on my couch, listening to the smiths & updating my blog. this week is going to be non stop.. go go go they say.. keep on track. mind of matter. tomorrow i am in the studio. i love mark, he is a true musical inspiration. tuesday i am doing some fashion event for buzznet with that girl kristin from the hills.. i've never seen the show.. so... yeah... haha.. wednesday i am shooting the music video for annie automatic, thursday is a fashion shoot & i am to take my car in for a check up. and the beat goes on.. and on.. and on..

today molly, rich royal & i decided to take it easy and have a pool side afternoon. greg had people over for drinks, swim time and bbq.. it was the perfect sunday.. last night i somehow ended up dancing at dianas, my neighbors, until about 5 a.m. we had people over and the night was alive. during the day i ran some errands & met up with my mom for a bite at cafe primo.. we made a quick stop into madison where i got some white doc martins.. i love them.. punk 77.. after madison i stopped by dita to pick up some new shades jeff had for me. i got an amazing pair of white reading glasses and some black sunnies.. john & jeff are the best.. they are the partners who own dita.. classic.

love bettie page... such killer style..

if you could change something going on in your life right now what would it be & why?

hope everyone had a wonderful weekend

xoxo